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Feelings. I feel Like a Sinnerman
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Recently, i had accepted a powerful script that could potentially affect me in many different ways than one. The script is about, vaguely, in portrayal of a son having not mch of a father figure. What one would never had the chance to have or ever even feel. I've never actually faced the true meaning of a real family. Forget about my mother now, lets just me talk about my father. Alone. Alone is the very word where i feel the love lost i feel i should have but never have. So how are you feeling lost when you never actuall have it? Confusing as it may seems, this feeling creeps into your nervous systems and acting in many different awkward ways. Researching oneself is a level of deep thoughts and feeling dare youw rite it on paper and later read it, as honestly as posible. I have gathered my feelings and thoughts into these words; -Desperate (having even a little time with someone would suffice) -Wrongful (in a sense of decisions and actions) -Alone (wanting to settle down with anybody, whoever -Sinnerman (go back to 'Sinnerman') -6 degrees of separation (but its a 1 degree separation when it comes to yourself and felings and thoughts) -Scared -Powerless -Meaningless -Depressive -Changed (too personal to explain) -Rejected (from many) -Different -Loveless (Go back to alone) -Seeking -Faithless -No Direction -Black -Psychotic -Psychological Warfare -Uncontrollable emotion -Delusional (? maybe?) etc.................. But it seems i would need to cry as nobody would listen. But it's fine. Who do i turn to? A silent faith where no one hears but to the almighty and try as hard to move away from the devil. I Just want to be loved. As i am powerless. But it's fine. It will all be alright. i'm sure of it. i am. Very Sure of it. For who will be the one who see me cry and see me happy, I hope you come soon. - hanz was here at 5:11 AM
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